Well, for anyone who remembers me, I took a sudden leave...and here's why, i'm about to explain the last 3 months of my life to you...so prepare for a read.
3 months ago, 4 days after my 25th b-day, me and my fiancee Zye split up after 6 years. A few weeks later a friend was living there with her..taking my place, this sent me into a pretty bad mental state and i proceeded to drink heavily every night and have frequent bouts of suicide, my arm is full of marks from tearing myself up in an attempt to prepare for what i assumed was going to be the end. Then, after the beginning of the new year a friend of mine died in a trajic accident. Needless to say, i hit rock bottom pretty fast, if i wasen't crying i was wanting to die. After 3 months of this i finally started getting things together, the suicide bouts are gone, now i drink maybe once a week and i'm looking for someone else. Either way, i figured people need to know what happened to me. I've sent the last 3 months alone, which to most people isn't anything...but after you've been with someone for that many years...waking up alone or going to sleep alone is worse then death. I've learned to deal with it though...and thus far i'm doing pretty good...
Well, this is about it..at least as far as i need to go into it....talk to you sometime again.
~Shin
3 months ago, 4 days after my 25th b-day, me and my fiancee Zye split up after 6 years. A few weeks later a friend was living there with her..taking my place, this sent me into a pretty bad mental state and i proceeded to drink heavily every night and have frequent bouts of suicide, my arm is full of marks from tearing myself up in an attempt to prepare for what i assumed was going to be the end. Then, after the beginning of the new year a friend of mine died in a trajic accident. Needless to say, i hit rock bottom pretty fast, if i wasen't crying i was wanting to die. After 3 months of this i finally started getting things together, the suicide bouts are gone, now i drink maybe once a week and i'm looking for someone else. Either way, i figured people need to know what happened to me. I've sent the last 3 months alone, which to most people isn't anything...but after you've been with someone for that many years...waking up alone or going to sleep alone is worse then death. I've learned to deal with it though...and thus far i'm doing pretty good...
Well, this is about it..at least as far as i need to go into it....talk to you sometime again.
~Shin
punching bags ftw ^.^
