Knights Reborn

Well, for anyone who remembers me, I took a sudden leave...and here's why, i'm about to explain the last 3 months of my life to you...so prepare for a read.


3 months ago, 4 days after my 25th b-day, me and my fiancee Zye split up after 6 years. A few weeks later a friend was living there with her..taking my place, this sent me into a pretty bad mental state and i proceeded to drink heavily every night and have frequent bouts of suicide, my arm is full of marks from tearing myself up in an attempt to prepare for what i assumed was going to be the end. Then, after the beginning of the new year a friend of mine died in a trajic accident. Needless to say, i hit rock bottom pretty fast, if i wasen't crying i was wanting to die. After 3 months of this i finally started getting things together, the suicide bouts are gone, now i drink maybe once a week and i'm looking for someone else. Either way, i figured people need to know what happened to me. I've sent the last 3 months alone, which to most people isn't anything...but after you've been with someone for that many years...waking up alone or going to sleep alone is worse then death. I've learned to deal with it though...and thus far i'm doing pretty good...

Well, this is about it..at least as far as i need to go into it....talk to you sometime again.

~Shin

holy shit shin 0.0

well, im very sorry about your troubles, but im very proud of you that you pulled yourself out of that hole, im trying to do the same atm

keep it up man, glad to hear your ok

know how u feel with a split etc as i split with my ex 2 years ago and was with her 8 years so understand how u felt there m8

ShinZagato wrote:Well, for anyone who remembers me, I took a sudden leave...and here's why, i'm about to explain the last 3 months of my life to you...so prepare for a read.


3 months ago, 4 days after my 25th b-day, me and my fiancee Zye split up after 6 years. A few weeks later a friend was living there with her..taking my place, this sent me into a pretty bad mental state and i proceeded to drink heavily every night and have frequent bouts of suicide, my arm is full of marks from tearing myself up in an attempt to prepare for what i assumed was going to be the end. Then, after the beginning of the new year a friend of mine died in a trajic accident. Needless to say, i hit rock bottom pretty fast, if i wasen't crying i was wanting to die. After 3 months of this i finally started getting things together, the suicide bouts are gone, now i drink maybe once a week and i'm looking for someone else. Either way, i figured people need to know what happened to me. I've sent the last 3 months alone, which to most people isn't anything...but after you've been with someone for that many years...waking up alone or going to sleep alone is worse then death. I've learned to deal with it though...and thus far i'm doing pretty good...

Well, this is about it..at least as far as i need to go into it....talk to you sometime again.

~Shin

Ahh i understandz - i'm glad you feel better! Also instead of drinking (that is if you have stopped), try to workout better way to get rid of... mentality! :O

hope ur feeling better punching bags ftw ^.^

Wanderer wrote: well, im very sorry about your troubles, but im very proud of you that you pulled yourself out of that hole, im trying to do the same atm

keep it up man, glad to hear your ok

Well besides his first comment that i took out he basically said what i wanted.

If you need to talk to anyone personally you can pm me =) im always up for a chat. =)

take it easy bud.

Surely remember you Shin...
I can understand you a little on this thing... I am happy to hear you are getting better about it =) Wish you luck in future

I'm really sorry to hear that shin, really. I'm glad to see you're recuperating from this.




<3 always

~Rachel

oh wow, that was a serious bout of bad luck, glad to hear ur better

HUGS!

Ooooo.....

*hugums*

You'll be cool, takes time I should know.

Whoa! To think... I've been worrying abt getting all my homework in! Good thing u pulled urself together. i hope things go better for u in the future.

Hit me up on MSN if your ever on Shin, im there for you

I don't think I know you but I hope you get better, and remember suicide isn't the answer to life's problems!

wow! i was wondering were where you. the good thing now is that you are recovering, not a lot of people do so quickly. im glad to hear you are alright now i'll be glad to help you in any way i can

wow man thats scary. hope you ok now

Life can be a bitch, hope things get better for you Shin

holy crap its a tenks!

Scythe wrote:holy crap its a tenks!

Is this really an appropriate thread to be posting that? Stay on topic and maybe, just maybe, care about what shin actually wrote.

OMG Shin

I am so sorry to hear that.....I do not know what to say but I hope you cn pick yourself up and fight on. I know you can

Live Long & Prosper Shin!

I had a friend who came really close to committing suicide... it was the worst thing I ever experienced when he told me he was going to attempt it. I'm glad you didn't go through with it, even though I may not know you well. Hope you get everything sorted out... sry im a bit late on this btw.

Rick told me about what happened, hate that for ya man, I really do.

Haven't talked to you in forever, but I definately didn't forget about ya, good luck with whatever comes your way.

SDangeR