I was going back in memory lane of sorts remembering how i came into Jedi Academy when I realized the growth I experienced from the mentorship I created over five years I could write a book. No one ever realize what they have been put into opportunities I til they reflect back and see how they have grown over the years through the use of a mentor friend partner lol he hated the word master felt like he was never above me we were equal just not in rank lol.
Evertyhing I had accomplished I owe to him for he took on a person that clashed for the first year hated each other cause the leader saw that we needed each other at the time.
I was reckless and believed in quick duels he believed in the art of dance and life lessons which at the time found boring but exciting at the same time. He never opened up to anyone which I found a challenge and I would not tell him anything which he found a challenge.
Anyways long story short we stayed together for five years I turned down and refused promotions gained a few promotions because I was forced into taking them so to speak.
He would tell me I deserved it I looked at as if no I deserve nothing but the opportunity to train and learn which we did for almost twelve hours a day.
I would be impatient and he would be calm we were night and day two separate people but yet when together we were on whole.
I will not bore anyone because this could go on for hours but interesting to know that if was not for his teachings understanding and patience I have no doubt I would not be the same person. I hated achievements because never felt like I was good enough or ready he would get mad because I would allow myself to hold back knowing I could achieve anything.
I was content on where I was because I felt many before deserved more than me because they one been longer and two formed a friendship to the clan long before me.
I was asked many times to accept rank and admin I refused many times only accepted admin and council after me and him talked and he told me he would quit if I refused this time lol.
To me if idk probably had bored people to tears within the first two lines but mentor padawan lol he hated master felt like he was never above anyone else he wanted to teach people to have fun and the history of how the clan and maps came into existance along with life lessons. Those were not fun at first but after the first year those begin to play apart on who I am and how I see things in other perspectives.
Ok I promise this time I am done did not mean to write as long just reflected on how I got here and what I missed so much about the game the interactions it was the learning and growth to take and use not just here but to find that special what I guess you call talent from someone and apply that to who you are now and reflect on not what you done but what they and the clan have done to you in order to make your potential be unlocked no matter if it is game related or like us we unlocked and learned about each other that those memories I am hold and reflect back on because I can hear him telling me what I am doing wrong what I need to fix but I regret I never hear him say how much I have grown. Sure we all regrets even in the game but my biggest regret was leaving without saying bye sometimes life happens he uses to tell me but even with that comes the knowledge that regret will follow because the path we choose has consquences. I feared I was doing poorly as I guess you call high rank official even tho I had created alliances it was the wars I made that tore me in two conflict was my enemy I get nervous and he could tell he tried to convince me I done right but I doubted because of the conflicts I could not solve that I did not start from within and the one friend I lost who made me a lightsaber.
Life we never know what will happen a simple text one minute and if I dont get another something went wrong and silence the next weeks later.
Ugh promised I would quite writing I have enough memories I could write a trilogy but seriously I will stop I wrote this because these are the part of thoughts as a writer I have trapped I just never shared them with anyone till now.
Evertyhing I had accomplished I owe to him for he took on a person that clashed for the first year hated each other cause the leader saw that we needed each other at the time.
I was reckless and believed in quick duels he believed in the art of dance and life lessons which at the time found boring but exciting at the same time. He never opened up to anyone which I found a challenge and I would not tell him anything which he found a challenge.
Anyways long story short we stayed together for five years I turned down and refused promotions gained a few promotions because I was forced into taking them so to speak.
He would tell me I deserved it I looked at as if no I deserve nothing but the opportunity to train and learn which we did for almost twelve hours a day.
I would be impatient and he would be calm we were night and day two separate people but yet when together we were on whole.
I will not bore anyone because this could go on for hours but interesting to know that if was not for his teachings understanding and patience I have no doubt I would not be the same person. I hated achievements because never felt like I was good enough or ready he would get mad because I would allow myself to hold back knowing I could achieve anything.
I was content on where I was because I felt many before deserved more than me because they one been longer and two formed a friendship to the clan long before me.
I was asked many times to accept rank and admin I refused many times only accepted admin and council after me and him talked and he told me he would quit if I refused this time lol.
To me if idk probably had bored people to tears within the first two lines but mentor padawan lol he hated master felt like he was never above anyone else he wanted to teach people to have fun and the history of how the clan and maps came into existance along with life lessons. Those were not fun at first but after the first year those begin to play apart on who I am and how I see things in other perspectives.
Ok I promise this time I am done did not mean to write as long just reflected on how I got here and what I missed so much about the game the interactions it was the learning and growth to take and use not just here but to find that special what I guess you call talent from someone and apply that to who you are now and reflect on not what you done but what they and the clan have done to you in order to make your potential be unlocked no matter if it is game related or like us we unlocked and learned about each other that those memories I am hold and reflect back on because I can hear him telling me what I am doing wrong what I need to fix but I regret I never hear him say how much I have grown. Sure we all regrets even in the game but my biggest regret was leaving without saying bye sometimes life happens he uses to tell me but even with that comes the knowledge that regret will follow because the path we choose has consquences. I feared I was doing poorly as I guess you call high rank official even tho I had created alliances it was the wars I made that tore me in two conflict was my enemy I get nervous and he could tell he tried to convince me I done right but I doubted because of the conflicts I could not solve that I did not start from within and the one friend I lost who made me a lightsaber.
Life we never know what will happen a simple text one minute and if I dont get another something went wrong and silence the next weeks later.
Ugh promised I would quite writing I have enough memories I could write a trilogy but seriously I will stop I wrote this because these are the part of thoughts as a writer I have trapped I just never shared them with anyone till now.
